Chaos
My life is in a constant state of Chaos.  There is nearly always a pile of clean laundry lying somewhere, the floors have not been mopped, there are dishes in the sink and the trash is overflowing.  I've not opened my Bible in weeks, I nearly never pray, and I've not blogged in how long?  Problem is, those are things I really want to do.  I just keep letting things get in the way.  Or at least, I let excuses get in the way.

There are probably several reasons why my life is always so chaotic.  Being bipolar helps nothing, as I get easily distracted (I am currently writing this post sitting on my bed surrounded by the laundry I should be folding) and I think the biggest thing is that I never learned how to live on a schedule.  Ever.  In high school I literally had to make it to school, to work (my senior year) and home.  Anything other than that (and church) was a free for all.  And then I went to college and barely survived.  I've never been able to do anything on schedule, and it's really messed things up around me.

So this year I'm working on my one word.  Last year was a powerful year of healing and growth, and now I want to take the next step: being a human again :)  And by that I mean I want to function.  I want to be purposeful in my life.  I'll never be Dolores Jane Umbridge, but I would like at least a little order in our lives.

Therefore I'm working on a schedule of sorts.  Some sort of guideline to keep our lives moving, so to speak.

I don't know that it'll work, but hopefully I can get back into the swing of things, and stay there.  Some of my goals include getting back to running, writing and blogging.  I need to deal with my serious apathetic attitude towards my spiritual life (and my children's for that matter) and I'd like to have a little more sanity at home.  Like, I'd like to be able to walk through the living room and not trip five times.  I'd also like there to be clean cups when I need one, and clean underwear at any given time.  Ahem.

So wish me luck as I try to make sense of the chaos that is my life.  And hopefully you'll hear from me a little more, too :D
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  1. Mallory Says:

    Good luck, love! Praying for you! <3


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