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I watch as you piece them together, carefully constructing the tracks to match the world you have built in your mind. I listen as you mutter to yourself "Where is your mommy, Thomas? Is it Emily? My daddy is Percy, but I'll share with you if you need". I laugh to myself as I realize that you are completely wrapped up in your own little world. You have no concept of life, really. And yet, you are the most alive person I've ever met.
You sit on the floor, pushing your trains around as though they were real engines, unaware that your world is changing. I feel a tear fall down my cheek as I realize that soon, I will have to tell you that your Grandma, whom you asked about just this morning, has passed away. It breaks my heart that when you grow up, your memories of her will be dim. You love her so dearly.
I dare not ruin your world today, as you sit peacefully playing in your mind. I can't bear it. I worry for days how you are going to handle the news, if you'll truly understand what is going on. I worry more about your sister, but your reaction intrigues me.
I look into your eyes as Daddy tells you that grandma is gone. I see the tears roll down your sisters face, and my heart aches as she crawls into my lap. But I watch your face, the smile that twinges on the edge of your lips, and smile as you say "then she is in Heaven, and when he get there I can see her and then I can touch her again". Indeed, my son.
I'm a wife. I'm a mom. I'm a photographer. I'm a lover of Jesus. My house is a mess, my kids are dirty, we eat take out more often than not. My life is loud, busy and crazy. And that's okay with me.
This is Eric, the man you've been praying for. He's a paramedic. He quilts in his spare time. No, I couldn't make that up :) He has NASH (a form of liver disease, non-alcoholic) and diabetes, but those things don't define him. He's a man of God, an insanely wonderful husband, and the best daddy in the world.. Just ask these guys..
Our daughter Ali, she's 9. She's fiercely opinionated and strong willed. She's a Daddy's girl, but the umbilical cord hasn't but cut from me, either. She's a gymnast, and proud of it. She spends more time upside down or turning flips than she does walking. She's crazy smart, and absolutely sure of it. She is my insufferable little know it all.
Our son Dylan, 7. We lovingly refer to him as Chubs. Or Chubby. Or fat boy. Ahem. He is all boy, as you can see by his crazy wild energy. He has the highest pain tolerance of any child I have ever met. He plays soccer and does gymnastics, but truly he is a gamer, a nerd. He is an avid reader and loves to climb. Not to be outdone by his sister, he's a drama king, but to him, I'm the best mommy in the world.
I'm here to use my voice. So many people can't. In a world of darkness, I just want to help God's light to shine through. I pray that my words are His, and my love is His, as well. This is my journey through the darkness. To start are the beginning of the story, click here.